There’s a kind of shame nobody talks about when you’re learning and building at the same time:
the shame of vibecoding.

That feeling of thinking:

“Real developers probably don’t work like this.”
“I should already know where this code belongs.”
“If someone sees this repo, they’ll notice I’m still figuring things out.”

Vibecoding often looks messy from the outside.
Files move. Decisions change. Architecture gets refactored.
Sometimes the code works before you fully understand why it works.

And that can feel uncomfortable — especially in a culture that celebrates clean repos, perfect abstractions, and confident explanations.

But here’s the thing I’m slowly learning:

Vibecoding isn’t incompetence. It’s cognition in motion.

It’s what happens when you’re:

• learning a new framework (Next.js, App Router, Server Actions),

• internalizing new concepts (TypeScript, API boundaries, async flows),

• and still shipping real features in a real product.

The shame usually comes from comparing a learning brain to a polished outcome.
But those outcomes are built on layers of experiments no one ever shows.

I’m choosing to build in public anyway — with imperfect commits, refactors, and architectural doubts — because that’s how the mental model actually forms.

Not by pretending to know everything.
But by being honest about what I’m still learning.

If you’ve ever felt that quiet embarrassment while coding, you’re probably doing real work.